When I was 12 years old I felt the Spirit of the Lord draw me to him.  I made the decision then to surrender myself to the Lord and make him my only God.  Though due to my fleshly body later in life I turned my back on God.  The Spirit of God drew me back.  This is because the blood was already applied and I believed with all my heart in the birth, death, and resurrection of our Lord, Jesus Christ.  During the time I was out in the world I tried drugs and alcohol but was always empty on the inside.  nothing could replace the feeling that I had when I was living for God.  This is because there is nothing the world has that can replace the Love of Jesus.  The Spirit drew me back and I have been with my Lord ever since and I  try to do his will always.  I want to let everyone know that if you are looking for something to feel the emptiness that's in your heart, I beg you to surrender yourself completely to the Lord and let him be your Lord and Savior and you will never be empty again.  He will be with you always to lead and guide you.  The Lord said that he will never leave you nor forsake you and that he would always be with you, even to the end.